Standing firm or shaking in my boots...

This past week, my husband had to go out of town for a few days. No big deal. In fact, the first few days were nice. I got a few extra things done that I would normally not have time to do. Also, I slept really good, which is a complete abnormality! But come the third night, I was completely overcome with anxiety. I couldn't go to sleep and I even woke up all in the night thinking someone is going to break in. What amazes me is that I never have this issue when my hubby is in town. I am not sure what I think he would do if we were all of a sudden overcome with a swarm of burgerlers, a wild pack of dogs or maybe even a helicopter crashed into my roof, but I have no doubt in my mind that he could handle it! That is alot of faith in one person isn't it! Anyway, he was gone and what did I do but sit there and wonder what in the world was that noise I just heard? What about the shadow that I don't remember seeing a few minutes ago? After what seemed like an obnoxious amount of time worrying, I finally remembered to pray. I prayed that God would put an army of angels watching over my house and keep us safe all night. Well, I said AMEN and fell fast asleep only to keep on waking up all night! The funniest part about this whole ordeal is what happened once I woke up. Do you ever think deep, mind engaging thoughts upon waking up? Neither do I. I am usually thinking, "I must wake up, I must wake up, I need to potty, must wake up..." Anyway, immediately upon waking up I thought of Peter in Matthew 14:22-33. How he saw Jesus walking on water, had the faith to step out and join Him, knowing He was his Savior, yet still he doubted. ( 27 But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid." 28 "Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." 29 "Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!" 31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?" 32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God." ) Why I thought this was so funny is because I know God gave me that thought. I knew to go to Him. I trusted Him by peacefully going to sleep, yet I doubted Him because I kept waking up (ie shaking in my boots). Yet, I have no problem thinking my hubby will conquer giants on my behalf. Isn't that amazing that my faith in my husband outweighs the faith I have in my Savior (at least in this instance). God has taught me a valuable lesson in where my faith should lie as well as how much faith I should have. "...I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20b Stand firm in your faith for Christ. He will strengthen you, "For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him." 2 Chronicles 16:9