Call on HIM!!!

Well, I am absolutely exhausted. I actually just took a shower and fell asleep while my eyes were closed. I woke up when I started to sway! I thought I would share a quick thought though. I have been doing a Bible study on Jehoshaphat and his ability to trust God. With that said, the study has been trying to make you think of areas where you are not trusting God completely. I prayed and ask God to show me areas in my life where trust is not working so well for me. That was yesterday morning. Last night, Philip and I went to the movies. We had a sitter and we were both just looking forward to some time together. After we left the house, we thought we might just see what was playing at the theater. I really did not recognize any films, but the one titled, P.S. I love you, seemed sappy and lovey and I thought that sounded great. Girls, can I just tell you I cried throughout the whole movie. The movie was focused around a couple in love. The husband passes away at the age of 35, but he sends his wife letters after his death. I was falling apart. While I was having a tissue moment, I realized God was using this to show me an area where I truely am not trusting God, fear. I never really would have said I wasn't wholly trusting in God in some areas of my life, but I was smacked between the eyes with this one. Since we married, I have had a fear of Philip passing away before me. It has intensified with each child we have had...most likely because I am scared to death of the thought of parenting 5 kiddos by myself. Long story short, read about King Jehoshaphat. To see the trust he had in God when a battle was ensuing toward him only 30 miles away is amazing. God told him to do nothing other than show themselves to the enemy. Jehoshaphat never fell short in the way he handled the situation with God. He used his trust in God to give him the strength to follow through with what God wanted him to do in that situation. How hard is it in our job of mothering to trust God and follow through on what we know we need to do as mothers? Sometimes I think the Holy Spirit needs a bullhorn to shout in my ear, "PRAY NOW!!!!!" For too many times I try to handle situations with the kids myself, instead of calling on our Savior. I have prayed that the Holy Spirit will be quick to remind me of what I need to hear in every situation...call on Him!